I’m A Big Ole Lesbo & After Ellen

That’s what my girlfriend tells me. And come to think of it. I am.
There could be worse things…

I love my baby, and if that makes me a big ole lesbo then so be it.
What is funny is she has pride this, rainbow that all over her Ning, myspace and twitter pages…so if that isn’t the pot calling the kettle black I don’t know what is.

What I really wanted to talk about was After Ellen.com, they have a lot of cool blogs, video blogs and content for, about and by lesbians.
When I go to afterellen.com I really feel like a big ole lesbian. lol

I also found some great indie lesbian filmakers who have some great films and I wish there was a better forum they could use to get their films out to the masses. I really want to support more in 09. I should probbly subscribe to Curve magazine, Jane and Jane and the Advocate too. Not just because it’s for lesbians but they have really good content.

My gf is in love with the tees over at www.dyketees.com and I must admit they are cute, I like some of the sayings and art. It would be fun to walk around with an “out and proud” tee shirt just to see the reaction on folks faces. LOL.

Because I have no gay friends, visiting afterellen.com and some of the great lesbian blogs on my blog roll and others makes me feel part of the family.

I am also excited about Season 6 of the L word. Meaning bye-bye HBO hello Showtime! I have a love-hate relationship with that show, which does not stop me from watching it faithfully! I also like that show on Logo “exes and ohs” even though I think its not longer on the air.

We need some good lesbian media!! And not that 3 episode crap where one character discovers shes a lesbian and has some whirl of a romance with another girl who winds up dead or mysterioulsy missing; which then returns the show back to its regularly scheduled programming.

I am constantly ISO of some good lesbo sites, if you anyone knows of any, please pass them along!

My Coming Out Part 1

So this week, after a heated exchange between my gf and I…I decided to begin the process of coming out.  I don’t have a grand detailed plan on how to do it, but like Nike, i need to “just do it”.  So thus far, I have told 2 people, my son and my son’s father.  Two people I have left to tell are my grandmom and my dad.  So here’s the story.

My son…

Driving my 7-year old son to school I told him that Nesha (my gf) and I are going to be together for a very long time.  I said do you understand that?  Yes, he said.  Then I said I love Nesha very much.  He said “I know”.  Then he says, is Nesha your girlfriend?  I said, yes, she is.  He says “ooooooooooh….ya’ll are going to get married” proceeded by a few giggles.  And that was that.  He is fine with it and he loves Nesha, so as long as she isn’t going anywhere he’s happy.

My son’s father (aka Stupid)…

So I am driving to work, sitting in DC traffic…so I call my son’s dad to break the news.  No answer…damn.  I knew I needed to do it before I went to work or I wouldn’t do it all.  So I sent him a text message…hell, he really isn’t even worth the phone call anyway I figured.

My text: “so you know, I’m gay” (straight to the point)

His text: “duuuhhh”

His text: “i still love you and just figured this was the reason we don’t really get along as much as we could/can.

My text: “No you just get on my nerves”

His text “Can you talk”

By this time I am at work, and I call him from my desk phone.

Him: So, you don’t miss the dick?

Me: I am about to hang up now

Him: How about a menage a…

Me: Click…dial tone on his end.

His text: I was just joking…so…is it the lady who lives with you?

Me: Yup.

Him: What’s her name?

That was the end of our exchange…I had done what I set out to do.   I assume he will spread the word to his side of the family, who I have become close to over the years.  We will see what happens from that.  Now on to daddy and grandma…

Coming Out of The Closet

I gotta come out.  I am tired of living behind closed doors and my girlfriend no longer wants to be a secret.  I am so scared its crazy.  I know my dad will throw the bible at me and I know my son’s father will probably try to take my son.  I really really really hate this.  The way I figure it is that I need to tell 3 people, my grandma, my dad and my sons father.    I am pretty sure the news will spread like wildfire from there.  I think I should just email my son’s father, the other ones I would need to tell over the phone since they don’t have an email address.  But goodness, that seems like such a bad way to say it..via email that is.  I don’t know, I feel like I am 15 years old.  My family is religious and this is the utmost no-no…I feel like if I come out, it will be hell for me.  I hate this *$# closet!  Makes we wanna scream!

Just sitting over here thinking about what to do…

Wanda On Ellen…Coming Out As Black…Too Funny

I found this great snippet on Your Daily Lesbian Moment. It is too funny!  Enjoy