My gf decided that she didn’t want to be here with me anymore and she is going somewhere (probably back to NY) at the end of the week. This isn’t the first argument that we have had where she has threatened to leave, but this is the first one that I really don’t have the energy to try to talk about it and work in out in hopes that she will stay. I really want a loving relationship and if she’s not the one, so be it. Her moving on, gives me the opportunity to find the right one.
Truth be told, I’ m tired. I am tired of the wishy-washy crap, the half-assed stuff. That really can go to the birds. I love her, yes. But if someone doesn’t want to be with me then it doesn’t do me any good to try to make them. Life is too short. Life goes on, it always does. Does it hurt? Not yet. I will go through all the stages of grief soon enough.
I do want a LT relationship with someone who loves me and cares about me and can communicate!
I probably will be posting more this week. Right now I am looking super cute and I think I am going to go out and see what I can get myself in to 
7 responses so far ↓
Bella // January 11, 2009 at 10:18 pm |
((hugs)) I know exactly how you feel. Eventually you do get tired of trying and I’ve been there. I think it’s important to let people do what they want to do sometimes, you truly can’t stop them. Whatever the outcome, remember your feelings are just as important as anyone else’s. BTW, Let me find out you’re partying now… Maybe you can take a drive up North and party with me
glennishamorgan // January 11, 2009 at 11:01 pm |
OMG!I’m in awe seeing that you’ve made several posts on how much you love her. Just know that everything happens for a reason. You deserve someone that loves you the exact same way that you love them. No matter what the final outcome is best wishes. *hugs*
Simone // January 12, 2009 at 3:27 am |
I’m sorry to hear it. Sometimes it does get to be too much work to keep things going. At least you sound okay about it. Hopefully your grief doesn’t last too long. Enjoy getting into trouble.
sipoftea // January 12, 2009 at 8:07 am |
My initial response to things like this is usually humour as in, “The same girl with the juicy butt? I’d run after her forever…”
. But, I won’t.
I can imagine it gets tiring after awhile and while little upsets here and there are to be expected, continued and emotionally draining drama takes it’s toll. I just hope everything works out for the best and you continue to forge ahead in pursuit of your happiness, doing things that you enjoy like your Pure Romance business and splurging at Sephora.
Take care of you.
ladybugsmile // January 12, 2009 at 11:37 pm |
Of course you always have to look at the overall relationship. You two definitely need the heart to heart to figure out where this strain is coming from. If you’re both in this relationship to be the best for each other and to have real love, then it’s worth fighting for.
Alix // January 13, 2009 at 2:16 am |
I’m so late. I actually read the most recent post first and realized that I had definitely missed something. You seem a little nonchalant about things considering how much you guys have gone through to be together. Of course I know now that she’s not leaving. I hope you guys can work on your communication in order to see yourselves through…
LL AJ // January 15, 2009 at 6:56 pm |
Geez, I have been falling off the blogs. I can hardly keep up these days with my schedule. Work it out.