Untitled…

This is a difficult blog for me to write, but nonetheless I am writing it because blogging has been and will continue to be a way for me to release emotions and gives me clarity.  It has come to my full attention that my son, possibly has emotional issues that can only be solved through prayer and a good therapist.  This is one of my biggest fears, as his dad as severe emotional issues and was diagonsed with bi polar disorder among other things.    In addition, his dads dad from what I have heard had the same types of issues as well.  And so now at 8, I am seeing questionable behavior from my son.

My son becomes very easily frustrated and he cries when there is no reason to cry.  I’ve noticed his behavior for a while and it’s now come to a point where I all the traditional methods (spankings, time outs, showering with love, talking it out, etc… are to no avail).  My heart goes out to my child who is having a very hard time controlling his emotions.  Today, while working with him on a report for school and while I was telling him that how he could make a good report great he got so angry and frustrated and just cried.  All I could do was hold him, because at that point I realized that he doesn’t even understand what is going on with him and it must be more frustrating for him to endure this. 

My son is a A/B student, he plays basketball and he plays football and is great at everything he does.  But I know his emotional issues hinder him.  I just tell him to do his personal best each day and I think he does.  He is very sweet, extremely sensitive and gentle.   His teacher describes him as a diplomat because he gets along with everyone and can mediate issues if needed. 

It’s very difficult in a relationship especially because my son and my gf’s daughter have had their share of ups and downs.  It’s to the point that I guess because my son does have his frustration/anger issues my gf has become very protective of her kids and its just hard.  So, I can’t really talk to her about what is going on with my son, I can’t talk to my son dad because he has the same problems.  Sometimes I talk to my son’s grandmother about things like this but I feel like she could have prevented his dad from being how he is if she had of nipped it in the bud when he was young.    Anyways, I am determined to figure this whole thing out and nip this in the bud. 

I hate to see my son deal with this and it’s hard not to have anyone to talk to about it, but without a doubt I will get through this and my child will get better.

Random Thoughts…

I am thinking that I want to read more books, and even though I’ve had several books on CD I really haven’t gotten into the trend.  I see over at  that I can actually rent books, they have unlimited rentals.  So, I don’t know, I am thinking I may want to try them.  I am most interested in financial, personal improvement and books for kids but a little fiction every now and then will be good too.  I am so thinking about making one new book a month my goal for this year.   I used to read so much, but I stopped and I miss it. 

I’ve been slacking on my businesses,  I have to get back into action.  But honestly, with work I have just been so damn tired it’s hard to focus.  But I have to get back to what matters most in my life, if I don’t put first things first life gets out of whack. 

I need to finish my taxes, I think this is the earliest in the year I have ever filed! LOL. I usually wait until April, but I just want to get it over with ASAP.  I love turbotax I have used them for the longest.  It is so easy and user friendly.  My gf uses them now too, I couldn’t believe she was paying over $200 at H&R Block for a 1040EZ, when you can do it online for free.  That was a rip off!!  I actually like filing my taxes and most of my records are kept online which makes it easy to find come tax time.

Going simple – I am in the process of simplifying my life.  Getting rid of extra stuff (thanks to ebay) and donating clothes to charity.  My project for the  longest has been organizing our closet and well, I have made no progress! We so need a better closet space as there is no place to hang anything and for such a nice space, it really could be better organized.  I am thinking that IKEA will be my best bet, because they have great closet but I don’t know.  I am taking all suggestions!

Speaking of going simple, I am so excited about the renovations to the house.  We painted the living and now the next project is to take down some wallpaper in the bathroom and dining room.  I already put down a deposit for the first set of windows and hopefully the 7 windows in the front of the house will be done by the time summer starts.  The hardwood floors will be in sometime in April and we are doing some work in our powder room as well.  I’m talking about a complete 360, new floors (getting rid of the vinyl and adding tile), new pedestal sink (replacing the old outdated sink) and a new efficient toilet.  Speaking of efficiency, the windows I am getting qualify for the tax credit and will also bring down the cost to heat and cool the house, which is wonderful.  I am in need of a new water heater and heating system BUT the heating system is very expensive.  So that is going to have to happen next year.  I hope to get a new water heater by the fall.  I will have to increase the rent my tenant is paying to cover the expenses.  Not by much, but the great thing about being a landlord is that I get to give myself a raise!

I also took a serious look at some of my expenses.  As a result I switched from Direct TV to Dish and cut my bill in half.  I also downgraded our cell phone plan because we weren’t even using half the minutes we had, it was a waste.  The next thing we are going to do is change internet services (Comcast is costly!) And since my lease is up in March, I will be without a payment and no need anymore for car insurance. But I will still be covered under my gf’s insurance policy because we still have the van (which is currently out of service! LOL).  But will be back up and running soon!

I am going to put some color in my hair (not me personally).  But I think its time to mix it up a bit!  Maybe a nice cut too.  I love my natural hair! I don’t think I will ever go back to the chemical crack!  I love products by Indigofera (www.indigofera.com), they are great!  I also ordered some Avocodo Shea Butter and Marshmallow Curl Pudding on www.etsy.com.  I can’t wait until that gets here!

I think I mentioned in another post how I purchased an ebook from Unconventional Guides.  My biggest pet peeve with many books is that they get you all excited and sold on an idea but never actually provide any actionable steps that you can take to implement immediately. But this book is totally different, and I am already doing a lot of stuff the book suggestions.  I love trying new things it gets me really really excited!

I am in major need of new clothes…and shoes. Enough said.

My gf made some really good spinach lasagna last night…I think I am going to go heat me up some!

Valentine’s Day

Valentine’s Day is right around the corner!  Not that it takes a special day to show my gf that I love her, but Valentine’s Day is always fun and an excuse to go the extra mile.

I have no idea what I want to do this year, I am thinking something fun and adventurous but I am out of ideas.  What our your Valentine’s Day plans this year?

Psychopaths in the Workplace Part 2

This will probably make no sense unless you’ve read Psychopaths in the Workplace Part 1.  Click the link to read.

I am optimistic. I believe in passion and purpose.  I have also been in the workplace to be aware of my strengths, weaknesses, likes and dislikes.  I am now at the point where I know a good deal, but I am always open to learning and growing.  I have a degree from a good school, I’ve worked for the best companies with high-profile clients, but I don’t have a chip on my shoulder nor do I treat others like I am better than them or like they are beneath me.  I don’t try to speak just to hear myself nor do I feel the need to show off or impress anyone.  I am who I am. Period.

A year ago, my gf told me about Psychopaths in the Workplace, she was a psychology major and studied criminal justice in grad school so she gave me the run down how we have a lot of psycho’s working right next to us, they could be our co-workers or they could be our bosses. 

The Straw That Broke the Camels Back
So, after the brief incident, my client comes over and tells me that I need to be at a meeting at 8am the next day to “take notes”.   Now, I look at him like him he is crazy.  But he is very controlling, and he likes to treat the women around him as secretaries, no matter how many degrees or credentials they have.  This is what I am dealing with.  At this point, I already have one foot out the door and I am just building a case for myself to get the other foot out as well.  So I print out the briefs for the meeting and I leave out at around 6pm.  Mind you, the client is in the conference room going over the brief with the project team.  The next day, I get to the meeting only to find out it has been cancelled.  Apparently, the client did not email the brief to the big man in charge in time and he cancelled the meeting. So, I got there and then after me the project team lead arrived and then more team members.  We waited around outside for the client, since he was in the meeting getting a verbal lashing from the big man in charge.  The clients new right hand man told me the client had him print out more briefs because the client said he wasn’t sure if I was going to be there.  WTF? WOW.  Like didn’t he practically demand I be there and didn’t I print out the motherfucking briefs? Why would I not be there? So anyways, the client comes out he doesn’t say good morning or anything, he starts to say something and the clients right hand, lets call him “J” interrupts him and says we already spoke about it.  So I’m thinking like why is he so damn hyper, it’s okay, I have the damn briefs, why is he spazzing.  So, we get back to the office and the project lead kept saying that the client never accepts responsibility, he always looks for someone to blame for his own mistakes.  Since he didn’t email the big man in charge the briefs in time, he can’t deflect that on to someone else.  That’s on him.  I’m thinking okay, life goes on.  I’ve moved on to the next thing.  I was just pissed I had to get up at 5 in the morning to make this damn 8am meeting. 

But Wait There’s More
So, I have my annual review with my previous manager (who is actually my current managers boss) and the first thing she brings up is that the client said the meeting that we had the other day was cancelled because I was late.  Have you ever seen the cartoons that have the steam coming out there ears because they are so angry? Well, that was me.  I was livid, I couldn’t even believe he even parted his lips to say something like that.  So this mofo didn’t send the brief in time and it’s my fault?  It’s not my damn job to do it, I don’t even have the email address to send the brief too.  Bottom line, that function is totally out of my swimlane.  The project team finished the brief at 2pm and the client didn’t even get around to looking at it until after 5pm.  When I left at 6pm they were still reviewing the damn brief.  So he fucks up and it’s my fault.  How does that even make sense?  Nor, was I even late to the damn meeting.  My job at this damn meeting was to “take notes” and as much as I totally hate that.  I figure if they want to pay me a whole lot of money to take some notes, then thats on them.  I couldn’t believe how he just totally lied. So, here I go again having to defend myself, having to provide references and information to prove this fool wrong.  Here we go with the Tami is guilty unless proven innocent bullshit.  Gosh I have so much to say about this.  Before I go pointing fingers at others I check myself first.  And every time there is an accusation, I check myself first to make sure that I am not the one in the wrong or the one who missed the memo.  I have gotten so frustrated with the bullshit, the politics, the extra shit that is insignificant.  I had 3 conversations with 3 different people about the same shit.  Each and everytime this shit happens its like 3-4 people I have to explain myself to, repeating the same information to my project manager, his boss, my manager and my old manager.  I swear is the damn twilight zone.  I’m looking at all the people who have fell off the project because of this mess, but yet they pay that no attention.  So while I am busting my ass to do all this shit, my name is getting dragged through the mug and I’m getting stabbed in my back.

But what they don’t know is that I don’t play that shit.

I want my life to be as simple as possible.   I do not attempt to create or dwell in unneccessary bullshit that doesn’t add value to my life or value to those around me.  Why create much ado about nothing? I took a step back and looked at the entire situation and the people and realized that these folks are certifiable. I mean its at the point if I am not sitting at my desk for a period of time, there where is Tami frenzy begins.  I remember one time I was talking to my manager and “A” is sending crazy emails and ccing my  manager saying I am not there.  So lovely, that I was in my managers office.  “A” was looking for me to give me a business card, a mutherfucking business card.  I already had the information anyway.  My thought is put the card on my desk and go on about your life.  It’s like she’s calling 911 or something.  Pure, sheer, madness.  Even around 12 today someone called me from my job, I took off today. Why are they calling me??  Can I get a mental break from these people?

I also tried to figure out my client, and what I realized is that he is crazy.  Not just difficult to deal with or misunderstood but an actually psychopath.  We think about psychopaths as folks who go around chopping people up, but there are many people who operate in corporate america that are absolutely certifiable.  So I begin to look into what my gf was saying about psycho in the workplace and after a little research I realized my client fits all the attributes of a workplace psychopath. 

Informational Links:
http://www.abc.net.au/catalyst/stories/s1360571.htm

10 Ways To Recognize a Workplace Psychopath
http://www.xomba.com/10_ways_to_recognize_a_workplace_psychopath_at_your_company

Realizing this doesn’t make things better, but it does make me realize what it is I need to do.  No one is going to steal my joy and I am not going to work in an environment that is not healthy (I totally didn’t blog about my super high blood pressure and chest pains after a particularly horrible day at work..smh).  There are many things that are more important than a job, like my sanity. 

Wow, there is so much more to this story but I am going to leave it at that.  My point is that no one should have to deal with madness at work, no one should feel uncomfortable or be tracked like they are on house arrest!  No one should be yelled at (yes, the client actually yelled at “A” which I wasn’t around for, but I heard it was bad. he actually got a bit loud with me last week, that’s when I left his office). 

Actually, the more I write about this the more bullshit I realized I have endured.  I am at my core, a person who likes to see the success of the project I am working, but not at the expense of my own livelyhood.  Nor, will I play small in order to help someone else feel better about themselves.  This world is full of people who are void of a reason for living, void of a purpose and it’s sad and pathetic.  But I refuse to let these types of people bring me down. Life is so much more important and so much more vast than that!

I am never without a plan! So happened across this guide, called Create Your Own Freedom:Break Out of Your 9-5. Even though I have owned businesses and I still do I am always open to learning and growing.  I read this guide in like two hours and begin to implement what I learned immediately.  I agree and I will tell anyone if you want freedom, you can’t find it in a job.  And this guy really breaks it down and it helped even someone not so new to business like me. 

So yes, I wrote my resignation later yesterday.  It’s 3 lines. LOL. 

Everything happens for a reason, and there is opportunity even in the middle of chaos!

Psychopaths in the Workplace Part 1

The reason why I haven’t been blogging or tweeting nearly as much as I have before is because I have a new job.  Well, same company, different client.  The great news is that I am just around the corner from my house, and if you’ve been on my blog you know how much I’ve complained about traffic here in DC and my commute to work.  It was just horrible, enough to drive a sane person crazy.  The bad news about this new position is that I am blocked from all social networking sites including wordpress and twitter.  The even bigger bad news is…

My job is crazy insane madness!  Not so much the work but the people. I have never in my life seen such a cast of characters.  What makes my job horrible is the people.  I mean at jobs with horrible work, when you have good people its bearable.  But when the people are a hot mess, it’s just impossible sometimes.  Let me explain a bit.  I am a consultant, so I have a client (the person I am contracted to perform consulting services for) and I have a manager, a program manager and all that jazz.  My team consists of myself and a few other folks.  When I first started I notices little strange things but for the most part because I always give people the benefit of the doubt and because I am usually too busy doing work I really didn’t give it a second thought. Until…

Someone unrelated to my task came up to me and told me that my program manager and his boss was in his office talking about how I am not doing any work?  My first thought: HUH?  Now, mind you when I came to this task I was given no direction or tasking by my PM, just from the client (via his right hand whom I will get to in a minute).  So I was working on the things that the client wanted me to work on.  My PM is so out the loop, he had no concept the things I was doing.  He never talked to me, he never asked me any questions, nothing.  I was working and he for some reason got it in his head I wasn’t doing anything. So, instead of him talking to me, he tells his boss that I am not working.  Now, my PM has a history of trying to throw people under the bus, no one likes him and he has been fired from several tasks before.  Overall, he’s crazy and an ass and everyone knows it.  But yet, when he said all this crazy unfounded stuff about what I was doing, folks believed him.  But when someone asked the logical question…if he had ever provided any instruction on what he wanted me to do, his answer was NO.  WTF???!!!  First clue, that something isn’t right.  So while, he has provided no guidance to me, he says I am not working.  Even though I am working on what the CLIENT needs to get done.  This was the beginning of the bullshit.

So over the next few weeks, things just began to get really crazy.  I had just started and I was thrown under the bus and back stabbed for things that had nothing to do with me.  So when shit didn’t get done, it automatically became that I didn’t do it.  I am talking about things that had nothing to do with me.  These things were being said behind my back, and I would find emails and things like that from folks about things that were just untrue.  A few times I had many not to pleasant coversations with my manager (not the program manager) about things that supposedly did or did not do.  Each time every accusation was just a  lie or completely exaggereated.  Case in point, I found an email where the clients right hand, lets call her “A” said that I never made progress on this particular task.  Now mind you, I had been there for 2 weeks, when I first started “A” immediately dumped the task on me asking if I can get it done.  No problem I am thinking.  Because after all, I am a problem-solver and I get my shit done, on time and I exceed expectations.   Now, “A” was working on this task for 4 months prior to me coming abroad, she never was able to complete it in that entire time, passes it off to me and then says that I didn’t get it done! LOL LOL.  Again, I found myself in my managers office having to explain and provide emails supporting what I said.  I actually did manage to complete the task in way less time than “A”, but I just find it crazy how people can’t accept ownership or responsibility and seek to find scapegoats instead of being man or woman enough to own up to their own stuff.   A few weeks later “A” either left the project or was kicked off, I don’t know which.

The Straw That Broke the Camels Back
I am skipping over so much here, because its just oh so much bullshit its crazy.  But after a five hour meeting on monday about these briefs.  The client decides on change #103 to this dam brief.  5 hours…discussing simple minor changes to a damn brief.  I get back to the office and make the changes to about 20 something briefs, replicating them across the board to ensure uniformity.  The client gets in the next morning saying those are not the changes he wanted. Mind you, he’s looking at an older revision to the brief, when I tell him that he gets visibily upset with his own error.  Instead of admitting it, he pulls up something else he says is wrong…he goes to show me…there’s nothing wrong. Which he replies “oh it must have been something else”.   I am pissed.  Because before this I get a call from manager who told me the client says I am leaving early and coming in late. WTF?? Another lie.  And on top of that, the client isn’t there all the time when I get in or leave. So how would he know?  Which brings me back to issue that if I am not sitting at my desk for 3 minutes, its a frenzy, like where’s Tami?? Like, I feel like I can’t even take a shit without folks going crazy.  But I digress, so I am standing in the clients office and he begins to look for other things to ask me about to “stump” me because his initial efforts haven’t been successful.  I tell him I have to use the ladies room and I don’t go back into his office after that.  I was actually so pissed from talking to my manager about the whole leaving early and coming in late bullshit that I have called my gf who was wating downstairs to talk.  That day, it was only my gf and God who kept me from pulling an Office Space (if you know that movie, you know what I am refering too). But it gets better…

Vegetarian Cooking

So, I’ve been abstaining from meat for about 2 months now and life is good.  Do I miss meat? Kinda.  But things without meat taste just as good as foods with meat.  Plus it allows me to expand my cooking knowledge and be more creative in the kitchen.  I happened across For the Love of Cooking via Hers and Hers and found these recipes that I have to try!

Roasted Vegetable Lasagna
http://fortheloveofcooking-recipes.blogspot.com/2009/07/roasted-vegetable-lasagna.html

Campanelle with Roasted Vegetables and Marina
http://fortheloveofcooking-recipes.blogspot.com/2009/10/campanelle-with-roasted-vegetables-and.html

Orzo with Roasted Vegetables

http://fortheloveofcooking-recipes.blogspot.com/2009/05/orzo-with-roasted-vegetables.html

All these recipes call for roasted vegetables, which means in one shot you can roast enough veggies for all these recipes.  I know, if you’re like me you’ve been taught a meal consists of a meat, a starch and a vegetable.  But you can healthy meals sans the meat a lot easier than most folks think. 

Even my gf and the kids are loving my vegetarian meals! Check out the links, they have some great pics and if you try any of the recipes let me know!

The New Middle Class

Ginger of Girls Just Want to Have Funds tweeted today about a study done by Yankelovich/Radio One called Black America Study.  All the details are available on their website here: http://www.blackamericastudy.com/summary. You can actually take the study yourself and it will show you what “segment” you fit into.  And since I was tired of looking at presentations and spreadsheets at work, I did just that.  And my segment is “The New Middle Class”.  Its not shabby group to be in, since “The New Middle Class” has higher than average incomes, education and tend to be more liberal and optimistic.  But it struck me, that if this is the social-economic segment that I fall into, then I have become exactly what I never wanted to be….stuck in the middle.

Being in the middle to me means being stuck.  There is no easy route out and you are just kinda wedged between two places, not really living, just existing.  I never sought to keep up with the Joneses, and I didn’t.  But somehow, I wound up somewhat like them.  I didn’t think that I had a lot of stuff, but looking around my house now, I realize I do. (or I just need better organization).  I seem to suffer from the same issues faced by my peers such as drastically declining home values (my home is worth percent what I paid for it three years ago), my fair share of consumer debt, bills to pay and kids to feed.  I have a good deal of student loan debt, but I no longer qualify for the interest deduction on student loans.  So, you goto school make good money and because you had to take out a loan to afford the education in the first place, you get punished for doing “too well” to reap the benefits.  Of course, education in and of itself is it’s own reward, but the point I am trying to make here is that the middle class is usually the hardest working, most overlooked and passed over group to be in. 

I would like to believe that most people in the middle class had/have aspirations of being wealthier, happier, healthier or whatever. But somehow our efforts have gotten us caught up somewhere in the middle.  And most of those my age or any age for that matter probably do 20x better than their parents.  But what I have always realized is that the playing field of life is real.  Every year the bar gets higher and higher.  Its harder and harder to work your way up since the entry level price to “play” increases every year.  For example, when my son graduates from college.  He will need resources (time, information, money) in order to succeed.  There is very little time to let life teach you the basics.  In order to purchase a home, he is going to need some help, in order to secure great opportunities he is going to need information and wisdom from me, family and trusted friends because unlike 20 years ago…what he doesn’t know will hurt him.  If I loose you on this point, don’t worry since it’s hard to describe what I am saying. 

Nonetheless, I need wrap this up because the President is about to speak…I will try to follow up on this later.

Renovation Realities Pt. 1

Currently, we have no curtains up and the entire world can see right into our house.  But these are pains of renovating our home.  We have successfully replaced the french pink walls (yes, pink…i love pink!) with a soothing color called “comforting” (think beige/tan).  My gf is painting as we speak.  Just one more wall to go!  We just need to paint the trim (crown molding and base boards) and we will be finished with the new paint in the living room.  It looks really good in here!  Painting is a inexpensive fix for any room.  Its a lot of work, washing the walls, priming, caulking, sanding, etc… but worth it.  Some of the other projects we are taking on are new windows and hardwood floors, which cost a lot more than a can of paint!  The first set of windows will cost me about 3K, so it will probably take me a year to replace all the windows in the house, since I am not using any credit! Just say no to credit cards! I figure if I can’t pay cash, then I shouldn’t be getting it!  Which leads me to another topic…

Debt. I hate it.  I have credit cards, 3 of them and the plan is to keep 2 and pay them all off.  I don’t use credit any more, yes, I have to save for things I want, but it’s worth it!  I also plan not to buy any  new clothes until May. YIKES! But the goal is to save, pay off debt, make investment in things that will give me a return on my money and live within my means.

Come March, I will be car-less, we will be a one-car family. My lease is up in March and I have no plans to get another car.  Since my job is around the corner, my feet will be a primary means of transport.  In addition, I plan to invest in a good bike. As a matter of fact, I would like for the entire family to have bikes so we can go for rides and get some exercise. 

But I am really excited about the changes we are making in our home! We plan to keep this house and purchase another one in the near future.  So I am hoping the updates we are making will appeal to renters as well as increase the value of the house.  I am also excited about getting out of debt in 2010 and experiencing a higher quality of life.  Well, that’s all for now.  I miss blogging and reading blogs My job blocks all blogs and personal networking sites, so I am limited in the time I have.

Happy New Year!

Becoming a Vegetarian

For about 2 weeks I have not had any meat, well, no “flesh” that is.  I may have had a crab cake or two    At a recent doctors visit, it was confirmed what I already knew…my health is not as great as it should be.   I’m not dying or anything but my busy bee lifestyle has taken its toll.  When the doctor said I had low protein and then said she recommends I become a vegetarian I wasn’t shocked.  I was just a little concerned how I would get protein if I didnt eat meat…turns out, lots of the “good” stuff is loaded with protein (spinach, fish, nuts, etc…).  I went cold cold turkey since that day and haven’t looked back.

So I wouldn’t miss meat, I haven’t really worried about the other foods I eat.  Albeit, saying I am a vegetarian may be a bit misleading, since I still consume cows milk and dairy products.  I have soy milk in the fridge, but that transition is going to take some more time.  Additionally, I will eat fish.  I know there is a whole community who get pissed when people say they are a vegetarian and eat fish.  I guess by definition, a vegetarian eats no meat including fish.  After some research I realize the vegeterian community is just as label obssessed as some of the gay community is.  I think that if you eat no flesh meat (red meat, chicken) you fall under the vegetarian umbrella.   I guess I should really say I’m a Pescetarian?  I don’t know, frankly, I’m tired of labels.

Looking back, I realize how different eating meat made me feel, specifically red meat.  Even though yummy, it makes me feel sluggish and tired.  Even chicken is not always the best thing for me since chicken along with other farm raised animals are a product of the mass production system.  By this I mean that these animals are fed foods that they can’t really digest and they are not supposed to eat.  So when they get sick, they are pumped with meds to keep them alive until the other meds they are given to make them go grow big and fat kick in.  The larger the livestock, the more money for the farmer.  But all of that “stuff” they inject these animals with are passed on in the meat we eat. This why people especially are children are so damn big now, we are taking in this crap that takes its toll on our bodies.    For more on this, there is a great book called the Omnivores Dilemia.  But I digress…

My gf and I decided to do an overhaul of our family’s food.  No more sugary cereals or drinks for the kids.  More fruit, vegetables and grains.  And only organic meats for the rest of the family.  Our new grocery store will be Whole Foods.
Our kids are active and we owe it to them to keep their minds and bodies sharp.

Giving up meat will probably prove to be one of the best decisions for me.  It’s a process, I am still consuming cows milk and dairy, but it’s a gradual process and I am applauding myself for my efforts thus far.